Why doesn't anyone give you  

more than 4 weeks holidays?

Because you won't come back. 

If you don't maintain your relationship  

with your identity for some time,

you also won't come back to it.
You will forget about it.
It takes effort to be the ego.
It requires no effort to be the Self.
Ego is high maintenance.
Your Self is natural and naturally happy,
whole and content. Mooji